5K Challenge: The Setback
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One of my great talents is excuse making. That coupled with my penchant for procrastination and rationalization is a dangerous combination. In short, it means I haven’t run since I was in St. Louis. And that was baseball season.
Yes, this is bad.
The first issue was that I came back from St. Louis sick. That cold, coupled with congestion and a killer cough, kept me on the sideline. And it lasted… I’m still not 100 percent rid of it. But worse than the cough was the fact it became an easy excuse. One I’ve used often and I’m not real happy with myself about it.
I’ve been so embarrassed about it that I’ve put off writing this, because that makes it real and will expose any excuse I’ve used as just that, an excuse.
The sad part is, I was enjoying running. But sometimes I enjoy not running more. I enjoy sleeping a little longer. I enjoy playing with the kid. And yes, I enjoy watching TV. You know what’s a lot easier than running? Watching TV. And with the new fall season, I’ve had a lot of TV to catch up on. So, you know, there are priorities.
Yes, yes, I know this is all stupid. But it’s there.
Right now, I’m worried about where to restart in my training program. I’d run the three cycles of the last step, but since it’s been a month, I’m not only pretty sure I can’t do the next step, I’m worried that I won’t be able to start where I left off. Actually, I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to. The fear of that failure is so great, it’s paralyzed me. I know every logical argument, but I just don’t want to be saddled with that defeat, it’d be too much right now. Instead, I curl up with the dog and catch up on the Walking Dead. I mean, I don’t run fast right now, but slow-moving zombies, I can still outrun (for short distances, they seem to have incredible endurance.)
What ticks me off was that I was doing well, not only enjoying it, but making progress I could feel and see. Yet, I let that go so easily and I’m worried about what that says about me and my chances for reaching my goal. I know it’s silly to think one backslide will doom me, but yet, here I am.
The good news, I guess, is that I built in a large cushion for myself. I still have time to do this program three times before my race. Let’s just hope I don’t need it.
This week — I promise (just like last week) I’ll get back on the horse. I think.
How does anyone else deal with setbacks like this? I can’t be the only one.